I think the worst part is that I hated that I liked K-pop, maybe because it meant that in most of my life I wasn’t really manly enough, and listening to K-pop made it worse. Like I know my friend group would call me gay or even worse stuff for liking it.
Like it wasn’t just the music; I was super into it, watched all the interviews, the variety content, unboxing videos, line distributions, visit subs like these, see all the chart data. I loved the whole culture around K-pop but kept it super hidden like it was classified CIA documents.
I grew out of it for like 5 years, and now, despite everything- how I hid it, pushed it back, deleted all K-pop comments I did on YouTube I’m back. And honestly, a group that wasn’t even my fave back then, I’m listening to the most too
Like, I called my K-pop era the dark ages of my life, when actually it was one of the only things I actually enjoyed but was too embarrassed to talk to anyone about. And ironically, it’s really the only thing I really do to relax mostly rn.
I think what’s funny is that I look at my liked songs and realise I don’t have many songs I listen to. Like, if we consider my whole life, around 700, but then I realise I have like 500 from K-pop I’m too embarrassed to even add to my liked songs.
I’m like, which concert would I go to where I know a lot of songs outside, like a couple of artists, and then again, it’s K-pop. I’ve just been too embarrassed to admit it all this time.
Okay, this is kinda sad now because I regret it now, but not during the 2022–2025 no-K-pop era. But I bought an NCT 127 album,the one with Kick it, in like 2020. Didn’t really listen to them before, but it was £10, and I wanted at least one kpop album anyway, so I got it, and I listened to the entire album and loved it, But during the no-K-pop era, I threw it in the bin. Every time I saw it in my room, I got embarrassed about it and wanted it to be hidden. Looking back, this was a very sad and bad thing i did
And yeah, now I’m back to K-pop, I guess. I guess cuz its nostalgic and relaxing and honestly just fun while I’m struggling with my diss rn
Tbh, its not even like I had much of a mindset change; I kinda just accepted it. I haven’t told anyone yet (im acting like this is something super serious when it’s just K-pop 😭😭) but if someone else asked me what music do I listen to id probably add a “also TWICE” “and BTS” to the end of the list.
Its also pretty interesting to see how the Kpop landscape has changed or not that much; like, I’m still mostly into 3rd gen and really BTS, BP, TWICE, SKZ, AESPA are still the top groups in the industry, so despite being out of Kpop for so long, my favs are still there. I don’t really know much about late 4th gen or 5th gen
And no i didnt watch Kpop Demon Hunters to get back into Kpop
Anyway i know that i was just being too scared and overthinking it but here’s how I got back into Kpop. My next goal is to go into the Kpop store and buy an album which honeslty writing it out honeslty just sounds so stupid that it took me so long to get this phase
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