honestly its been about 1 year since i havent been keepin up with kpop, i will very ocassionaly look at releases of groups im really into/have been a “fan” for a long time but thats mostly it. Which is also crazy since i came to realize recently thats been about 10 years since i became a kpop fan.
At the beginning of it i feel like most people dream of being an idol themselves, which is totally fine. In my case i remember having really high hopes since im brazialian japanese and have asian features so somehow i thought that would be easy for me to get in.
Anyways, as time passed by i auditioned to a few companies but couldnt get in. Recently as i started to distance myself from this world i started to think about how i do believe i would be a little miserable if i was indeed an idol myself.
Starting from the fact that im a queer girl who hey, prefers dating women so theres that. Like i would feel like shit having to hide my significant other for obvious reasons. The other thing would probably be that i do have a tendency of not keeping it quiet whenever i hear misogny lines, which again, its just a regular thursday on some korean talk shows these days.
Also i feel like many know this but i would be so tired of having a persona in front of the cameras/towards the fans but the minute those shut down i would probably be a completely different person from the one they “claim to love”.
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