I think we all know this day would come. It’s the day we’ve been dreading for since the day they debuted, and I had long prepared myself for this day to come. Yet after the encore had ended, the last time they will be performing as 9… I still just feel so utterly bitter at what had happened. And I probably wouldn’t have if I had not seen just how NONE of the members are even ready for this day to happen.
Hanbin cannot even hold it anymore when he read those letters to the members. Jiwoong was sobbing on several parts of the song. Poor Hao was completely and utterly broken in the end. Matthew was so broken at the thought of him being alone in his dorms. Taerae had to power through the songs trying not to cry. Ricky cried openly on stage for the first time hugging every members on stage. Gyuvin is so broken trying to sing I Promise You to the members. Gunwook regretted so heavily that he didn’t look at his members more because doing that will make him cry harder. And Yujin is constantly on the verge of crying throughout the entire concert.
Do you see the pattern here? Everyone is so miserable and dreading the fact that today is the last time they can perform as 9 on the same group with each other that they are already crying at the FIRST song performed. I just feel like the entire time I watched the encore it just makes me feels so miserable because the separation hurts for the members just as much, if not even way more than for the fans themselves. Its one thing if its their decision to leave the group, its another thing entirely for them to have to separate due to different circumstances.
And the end… God is it such a bad way of handling the end.
By Running to Future no one has the strength to even sing because they all cried so much that’s all is heard into the mic. So at their last song, it ends on a note that doesn’t even feel bittersweet because every single one of them was NOT ready for it to end. And the door… the goddamn door is the kicker of it all. Tell me which of the members doesn’t struggle to drag their feet into the door to conclude the concert. When its just Hao, Hanbin, and Yujin left all three of them looked so utterly miserable that it feels so cruel to have them walk through that door. And that’s the thing, I can’t help but to feel like the closure didn’t even give some sort of hope that they can meet each other again, it feels like all of them are mourning on what could have been that is completely unavoidable due to circumstances. So it gives a watching experience equivalent to that of euthanizing a healthy puppy because you are out of space in shelter.
I truly don’t know if I will ever not feel bitter about this. I hate the fact that no one is ready to leave each other but the circumstances forced them to and it creates one of the most miserable watching experience in history of K-pop, because tell me which zeroses left the venue or the livestreaming with any sort of positive thoughts. Certainly not me.
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