So, for some context—I’m a hyper-fixation type of person. I have a ton of hobbies, but I focus on one at a time for a long period and then hop to the next. Kpop is one of my “hobbies” in a way, and I spend long periods of time catching up and immersing myself into Kpop before checking out and then moving onto something else. I’ll spend time focusing on some other things (like books/other communities) and then come back to Kpop after a while. And one thing I’ve noticed is, everytime I come back to Kpop, my mental health declines rapidly.
I’ve been going through the latest Kpop cycle as of late, catching up with stuff and checking social media and honestly… it’s exhausting already. I’m part of a lot of other communities like booktok, the art community, marvel/DC, and other niche TV show/singer community and honestly… nothing sucks my soul more than kpop. Now I’m aware that all these communities have their own issues as well. But I think the appeal with them is that I can focus on the product that comes out of them without having to overtly engage with fandom. It’s easier to curate people with like minded opinions on a TV show in comparison to a LARGE kpop community. And more importantly, feels less icky because I’m talking about fictional people and not real ones.
I guess my point is that I just feel sad that Kpop makes me feel this way. That everytime I get back into fandom spaces all I see is negativity. All I see are fandom wars on twitter for the stupidest reasons, idols being racist (what’s in the air this year seriously) and being cancelled and then idols not doing anything and also being “cancelled”. It’s just… it’s a lot. And it hurts. I’ve been a Kpop fan for close to 8 years now. I’ve seen almost a DECADE in this shit, and I’ve come to learn that more than anything, I dread it. I dread feeling excited for new releases because there’s always a caveat attached to it. Dread opening twitter because god knows which idol is going to be strung through the wringer today? And it makes me sad. Kpop is supposed to be fun… but where is the fun??
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