I’m 15, and it’s my dream to be an idol since I was maybe 8 or 9 years old. I had gave up on my dream for years because I tried to be rational. I’m not Asian or half Asian, worse I’m ethnically Moroccan so if I debut every Muslim would assume that I’m Muslim (which I am not) and would call me a bad Muslim and I could get a lot of hate from that and also critcism from my family (being a performer is very frowned upon especially if I wear the outfits idols wear and if I do aegyo or whatever). And I’m quite pretty but probably not enough to be an idol. I thought rationally about other things, like the lack of freedom, sasaengs, anti-fans and hate trains, xenophobia, intense work schedule, sexualization, etc.
I’m very aware of it but I still yearn to be a Kpop idol. I still love dancing and singing. Sometimes I tear up imagining myself performing on stage. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve only taken dancing classes once for 6 months then stopped because I was unconfident. Lol I chose to learn Korean instead (and I speak it at a pretty good level, and seriously, I don’t just read Hangul or know what 잘 먹겠습니다 means). So I’m bad at singing, and even though I got a natural groove for dancing, I’m not “good”. Also as I’ve said, I’m very shy and unconfident so I’ve never stood on stage. All of this should convince me not to become a Kpop idol. But I now realize that I was wrong and that every idol had gotten challenges before debuting. Not everyone was already a good dancer/singer like Bailey of ADP or Taeyeon of SNSD, not everyone had the courage to start, not everyone was super bright and sociable, not everyone was beautiful like Sullyoon or famous like Sakura before joining IZ*ONE. Now I chose to finally take dancing classes, then hopefully I will take singing classes too.
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